Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Accepting what I did not want to accept

e In life we often come across situations where we get hurt by other people or a situation. We are often told to think whether the person is really important enough in our life to mean much to us. And while consoling the person who got hurt, basically it is told to him or her to just move on forgetting the other person.

 I have a different theory. We actually know in most of the time that what are the issues which can give us hard feeling. And what happens is that whenever we get amazed by a person or a situation or simply we get used to a situation, if it has that trait which can make you feel bad, we start to procrastinate to accept the fact. We try to make ourselves overlook those till the point which is just unbearable to us. But the fact of the matter is that people usually do not change drastically to fit into your criterion because they have their own life. And in a situation when you yourself is trying to denying the potential of someone/something to make you feel bad, that will also deny it till it does by any of its inherent quality which is so natural to it.

 We always try to explain events in the light of our understandings. And when we cannot do it, we stop thinking about it unless you practice to do otherwise consciously. That is the reason behind not accepting certain things believing things will turn out in our way. Our mind always try to analyse a situation with the resources available to it and if you restrain an information by not accepting it, there is a possibility that our mind will not be able to break down the situation which is the outcome of that very information to a level in which your consciousness can understand.

 I have seen that if you accept that certain person act in certain way, certain groups of people will always think in a certain way, it is all really very easy to explain everything in you own mind. Reality is after all, how you perceive it. There is a point however to note that by accepting people does not mean to assign a value to it and belittle them, rather respecting their individuality as an independent human being as well as in a certain group. By accepting and respecting a person you give that person a room to be what he or she really is and you give yourself a room to live freely.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

My experiences with pseudo-intellectualism

  This is about something which I observed in my daily life since I started understanding it and also started to feel the urge to do so. I am talking about pseudo-intellectualism (don't know if there is some word like that or not). Somehow I cannot do it and probably that is the reason I started hating it from the early days when I started to realise there is a thing like this. There is a note however that I also met several people, as my friends also fortunately, who actually are creative and know stuffs. But my disgust is towards those who fake it. In this case also, fortunately, I don't have any friend who practices it. But in daily lives friends are not the only person whom you interact frequently. I feel humiliated when I see people bluff about their capability or mentality to someone whom I care. I always try to make the idea clearer to the people I care if I feel they are being bluffed. Though I realised it much later that it really is not a very good idea to do it all the time, but that's another issue. I just want to express my anger which comes from the incapabilities of lieing. I couldn't find a better word for it.

  I also started feeling pitty for the people when I see them, even after having full knowledge, go by others' bluffs. And what hurts more is when I see me not getting something for someone who is a pseudo has convinced the person concerned. Yes, I know it is a very good quality, my dad, mom, almost all of my friends, even people whom I know got carried away by pseudos, told me about it. I am not implying the price of intellect is no more. It just cannot be. What I am trying to imply is that sometimes the one who gets the price does not deserve it and when you are the one they surpassed by bluffing and get something it feels bad with a pinch of pitty though.

  I just want to say, I am sorry. For I don't have the quality to confuse people if I can't convince them. It feels so demoralising. I am sorry for I can't buy professional devices to look like a one when I am not. I am sorry I can't lie to you about a poem and make minor change and claim that it is my own composition. I am sorry I cannot pretend to like some genre of music for it is way to attract people's attention. I am sorry I cannot tell you that I know everything about something. I am just a normal person who wants to get what he deserves. If the programme of lieing is not installed peoperly in a system, is it a reason enough to deprive it from having the privilages which it was supposed to get?