Tuesday, October 18, 2011


I have a friend who once told me that all the friends he has, they don't think that he has the best personality in the whole world. Rather they appreciate his ways to see life and perhaps also the differences with theirs. There maybe something more to it, but nothing less. I also seemed to understand it, but not quite realised its depth.

I think people become your friend because they just like to be around you. Now there is one issue, one should not confuse friends with walk-mate, class-mate or liquor-mate etc. So friends appreciate that you may be different from them and yet can remain friends. If somebody become your friend just because they like one or two qualities of yours, well it might continue to seem as friendship even for a lifetime and it might not matter anyway, I think its a disgrace in the name of it. Though I sometimes felt friendship is an overrated concept, I think its all because of those xyz-mates. I guess its very tough to find a friend because everybody is busy with their lives and most of them don't give a crap about yours unless it has something to do with theirs. We may not be able to find it. This is just as probable as doing a job which has nothing to do with one's best skills throughout their lives. It may happen. Life is not fair.

I think a friend should be like that feeling which tells you that finish this work and then you can go to him. He won't seem distant. You don't have to ask, he will tell you what was happening with him when you were not around; and you are listening to him because you want to and also not because after he finishes you get to talk. And he too is more than willing to know about you. And most importantly it won't seem like a formality. It will happen naturally.Well as far I understand, this is an abstract concept and these are my visualisation. And I don't think there is any right or wrong in this. You go on in your own way. If you are lucky enough, you don't get to suffer for all your wrong doings or unfortunate enough you have to. Everything is coincidence. We cannot ascribe earthly events related to our lives to more important phenomena. Life, rather time just go on.

A simple quote from long ago,
उत्सवे ब्यासने चैब दुर्भिक्षे राष्ट्रबिप्लाबे।
राजद्वारे श्मशाने च यस्तिष्ठति स वान्धब।।

Saturday, April 16, 2011

John 8:32 "...and the truth will set you free."

Sometimes you make me feel like I was damn wrong
So wrong that I don't even qualify to be with you
Sometimes you make me find, to my utter dismay that I was right
How do I know which one is in the realm of reality
I don't know, surrounded so much by the virtual reality
Where people have headaches when to send a real letter
Everything is parted from the other and made to stay at their domain
I don't know whether it is prohibited
To just want the truth
Unpolished, without any doping of impurity
I want the truth
Just the truth and nothing else, trust me
without the package of make-belief

As I heard that the Bible says that the truth shall set you free. Like all the other sayings, it came to my skull as some vestigial words, until when I actually realised at least to a little extent that what it actually means to be free. As Tolkin once said "all that is gold does not glitter." Though in life we always wanted the shiny stuffs sometimes it is required to come in touch of purity in its true essence. To purify our systems flooded by pretentious thoughts and inputs (both from within and outside) every single day and moment.

What i want to say is more or less like this-

It is easier to perceive error than to find truth, for the former lies on the surface and is easily seen, while the latter lies in the depth, where few are willing to search for it.
-Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe, German poet, novelist and dramatist

Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so you apologize for truth.
-Benjamin Disraeli, British politician and author

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Accepting what I did not want to accept

e In life we often come across situations where we get hurt by other people or a situation. We are often told to think whether the person is really important enough in our life to mean much to us. And while consoling the person who got hurt, basically it is told to him or her to just move on forgetting the other person.

 I have a different theory. We actually know in most of the time that what are the issues which can give us hard feeling. And what happens is that whenever we get amazed by a person or a situation or simply we get used to a situation, if it has that trait which can make you feel bad, we start to procrastinate to accept the fact. We try to make ourselves overlook those till the point which is just unbearable to us. But the fact of the matter is that people usually do not change drastically to fit into your criterion because they have their own life. And in a situation when you yourself is trying to denying the potential of someone/something to make you feel bad, that will also deny it till it does by any of its inherent quality which is so natural to it.

 We always try to explain events in the light of our understandings. And when we cannot do it, we stop thinking about it unless you practice to do otherwise consciously. That is the reason behind not accepting certain things believing things will turn out in our way. Our mind always try to analyse a situation with the resources available to it and if you restrain an information by not accepting it, there is a possibility that our mind will not be able to break down the situation which is the outcome of that very information to a level in which your consciousness can understand.

 I have seen that if you accept that certain person act in certain way, certain groups of people will always think in a certain way, it is all really very easy to explain everything in you own mind. Reality is after all, how you perceive it. There is a point however to note that by accepting people does not mean to assign a value to it and belittle them, rather respecting their individuality as an independent human being as well as in a certain group. By accepting and respecting a person you give that person a room to be what he or she really is and you give yourself a room to live freely.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

My experiences with pseudo-intellectualism

  This is about something which I observed in my daily life since I started understanding it and also started to feel the urge to do so. I am talking about pseudo-intellectualism (don't know if there is some word like that or not). Somehow I cannot do it and probably that is the reason I started hating it from the early days when I started to realise there is a thing like this. There is a note however that I also met several people, as my friends also fortunately, who actually are creative and know stuffs. But my disgust is towards those who fake it. In this case also, fortunately, I don't have any friend who practices it. But in daily lives friends are not the only person whom you interact frequently. I feel humiliated when I see people bluff about their capability or mentality to someone whom I care. I always try to make the idea clearer to the people I care if I feel they are being bluffed. Though I realised it much later that it really is not a very good idea to do it all the time, but that's another issue. I just want to express my anger which comes from the incapabilities of lieing. I couldn't find a better word for it.

  I also started feeling pitty for the people when I see them, even after having full knowledge, go by others' bluffs. And what hurts more is when I see me not getting something for someone who is a pseudo has convinced the person concerned. Yes, I know it is a very good quality, my dad, mom, almost all of my friends, even people whom I know got carried away by pseudos, told me about it. I am not implying the price of intellect is no more. It just cannot be. What I am trying to imply is that sometimes the one who gets the price does not deserve it and when you are the one they surpassed by bluffing and get something it feels bad with a pinch of pitty though.

  I just want to say, I am sorry. For I don't have the quality to confuse people if I can't convince them. It feels so demoralising. I am sorry for I can't buy professional devices to look like a one when I am not. I am sorry I can't lie to you about a poem and make minor change and claim that it is my own composition. I am sorry I cannot pretend to like some genre of music for it is way to attract people's attention. I am sorry I cannot tell you that I know everything about something. I am just a normal person who wants to get what he deserves. If the programme of lieing is not installed peoperly in a system, is it a reason enough to deprive it from having the privilages which it was supposed to get?